If you have no personal history, no explanations are needed; nobody is angry or disillusioned with your acts. And above all no one pins you down with their thoughts. It is best to erase all personal history because that makes us free from the encumbering thoughts of other people. ~ don Juan Matus in Journey to Ixtlan by Carlos Castaneda
Don Juan offers sound advice in Journey to Ixtlan, but I have found it’s even more important to erase personal history in order to free us from the encumbering thoughts of our own selves.
Ask yourself: Who is it that you want to be? What do you want your life to look like? What is the desire or unmet need that triggers the greatest longing within you?
Consider this: You cannot move beyond the person you now believe yourself to be until you are willing to let go of that belief. In other words, you cannot become the person you long to be, with the life you long to have, until you shed your personal history, which is the person you now believe yourself to be.
When you drop your personal history, which is the person you believe yourself to be, you are shedding your past self in order to become a new person with a new life. It’s like the way a snake has to shed its old skin in order to expand and grow. The same is true of human beings. As we grow and expand our consciousness, we become like new people. We can do this “accidentally” and by our own will as well.
If you insist upon holding onto old beliefs about yourself, you will not be able to become the new person you long to be with the new life you long to have. This is true whether you’re seeking a radical and dramatic change, or just a slight shift, like learning to be more present with more equinity.
For example, those people who believe they always have drama and crisis in their lives will somehow always have drama and crisis in their lives. Until they acknowledge that they are the ones creating it, and make a conscious choice to change their core beliefs, crisis and drama will continue to show up in their lives.
The most frustrating place to be is smack dab in the middle as you shift from that old self, shedding the core beliefs and stories and behaviors associated with that old self, and take on the persona of the new self with all of its associated stories and beliefs. To live completely without any inventory is to live in the midst of enlightenment; however, it isn’t possible to function in this linear world without a linear story. We can never completely shed the inventory. But we can do so long enough to replace it with a new inventory.
The new inventory will match the new core beliefs, such as a new job or career, a new home, new relationships, new ways of being in the world.
Make a conscious effort to erase personal history and shed your past self. That doesn’t mean you will eliminate everything from your life. You will only shed the things that no longer match your new, more expansive self, and that will be a huge relief.
Today can be the day you drop what’s no longer working for you and open the space up to bring in all the things you want. It’s your choice.